People change, people go. Is it?

This story is quite complicated sikit. It's about my relationship with him. Now, banyak sangat gaduh. Like seriously rindu nak macam dulu. I miss the old us. Nak tahu apa yg berubah? Bukan nak kata apa, dulu kan, apasemua aku suruh, semua dia ikut tau. But now, jangan harap lah kan? Sepatah aku cakap, semuanya tk nk dengar dah. How bad :/ Why everything's changed so fast?

Then biar aku sakit hati sorang-sorang, jealous sorang-sorang dekat sini. How could you? Fazli, aku suruh kau berubah bukan saja-saja, just nak jaga relationship kita tak boleh ke? K kau memang selfish! Pentingkan diri sendiri. Can I know who am I to you? Hmm. Yelah, mmg hati kau kena jaga, hati aku ni siapa nk jaga? Takde siapa nak jaga pun. Pernah fikit tk? :') Okay aku dah penat nak suruh benda yg sama everyday but kau buat taik je. I'm done trying# Mmg aku bukan sesiapa pun dalam hidup kau, perempuan lain lagi penting dari aku kan? Okay aku faham tu.

Yeah, like I said. It is okay to hurt me again and over again, I'm used to it kan? Aku pun tak tahu apa salah aku sampai kau buat aku sakit macam ni. I always thought that I'm strong enough to face it but kalau dah hari-hari kau ingat aku boleh tahan ke? Lama-lama aku fed up lahh! Do you know how many fucking times I've cry for you? Seriously I feel so bad all the time. Kenapa susah sangat eh nak appreciate semua benda aku buat? Haih.

A half month dgn kau pun still nak buat perangai juga. Aku selalu cakap, kalau dah ada orang lain bagitahu aku kan? And after that, kau nk buat apa semua kau buat lah, aku takdanya nak jealous, nak ambil tahu pasal kau lagi. Sebab skrg aku betul-betul rasa kau langsung tk syg aku pun. Hmm. And one more thing aku dapat rasa yang dia lebih pentingkan kawan dia dari aku skrg ni. Haih

*Sorry, I'm not a perfect girlfriend. I'll tell at you. I'll get jealous. I'm stubborn. I'm overthink and what mine is mine. Please faham aku mcm mana :/

Hmm, nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried. How many times I've been lost hope, and how many times I've let down.

Sedihnyaaaa hari-hari macam ni :'/ Wanna old you, please come back to me. Me miss the old you so bad asshole!

Sincerely me,

Alynna <3